In French, you don’t really say “I miss you.” You say “tu me manques,” which is closer to “you are missing from me.”
I love that. “You are missing from me.” You are a part of me, you are essential to my being. You are like a limb, or an organ, or blood. I cannot function without you.
Sooo the last few weeks with all the finals going on, it might have been stress but I swear i literally saw the earth rotating twice as fast. You know how we can see the earth rotating when we look up to sky during the day and the cloud moves around? Yea, I saw them moving twice as fast. It hit me on so many levels. I was having exams, so naturally the first thing that came to mind was “shit time is running out I can’t stop studying”. Then after the exams were over, it hit me another way. This semester felt super fast and in just a blink of an eye, I’m done with my first year of uni and I’ve been having this panic attack when thinking about turning 20 reaaal soon. Too many inner issues I can’t tolerate and I can’t afford to be an adult before this issues are taken care of. Maybe I should have a 20 things to do before I turn 20 list. Yea I should. I’m gonna go write them things down. K.
ps: I’m back in food heaven ahhhh :’)